rest my head in my hands

rub my aching eyes and wish

what ive broken could be mended

because pain is the new normal


crawl back under the sheets

curl my knees to my chest

like a small child fretting alone

and wait for the inevitable

what do you do

when the good memories

are no longer strong enough

to outweigh the pain?

what do you feel

when every emotion

is overwhelming

and hope is gone?

what do you think

when every smell in the room

and every awkwardly stacked book

reminds you of the loss?

where do you go

when every location

is still filled with images

of her…?

post tenebras lux 2

i used to be something other
than what i am today
some change is good
and some is not
and time is slipping away

"I have ruined relationships for fear of ruining those relationships."
Neil Hilborn (via deadpoetssociety-blog)

wow

when he was younger

he thought he had fallen in love

with the perfect girl

and they got engaged

in a room full of friends.

but those friends are gone now

and the girl he thought he would spend his life loving

never met him at the altar -

with tears in her eyes

trembling with joy -

because they never made it that far.

a few months in

and a few months away from vows

they hurled angry words

on his front porch

and went their separate ways

forever.

as everything he believed in vanished

he resigned himself to the reality

that he would never be able to trust anyone

ever again.

but in time

he met another girl

and slowly began to heal

as she loved him

despite his wounds and walls.

and now

after all these years

as love and trust have carried them

through the best and worst of times

he looks back and wonders

how it ever could have been any different.

spent saturday in big bend np hiking the hot spring trail from rio grand village to the abandoned resort at the hot spring.  probably the final desert hike this season but it was great and though you might think sticking your feet in hot water after a hike is ludicrous it felt amazing. glad i remembered my reefs and didnt have to put my boots back on.
spent saturday in big bend np hiking the hot spring trail from rio grand village to the abandoned resort at the hot spring.  probably the final desert hike this season but it was great and though you might think sticking your feet in hot water after a hike is ludicrous it felt amazing. glad i remembered my reefs and didnt have to put my boots back on.
spent saturday in big bend np hiking the hot spring trail from rio grand village to the abandoned resort at the hot spring.  probably the final desert hike this season but it was great and though you might think sticking your feet in hot water after a hike is ludicrous it felt amazing. glad i remembered my reefs and didnt have to put my boots back on.
spent saturday in big bend np hiking the hot spring trail from rio grand village to the abandoned resort at the hot spring.  probably the final desert hike this season but it was great and though you might think sticking your feet in hot water after a hike is ludicrous it felt amazing. glad i remembered my reefs and didnt have to put my boots back on.
spent saturday in big bend np hiking the hot spring trail from rio grand village to the abandoned resort at the hot spring.  probably the final desert hike this season but it was great and though you might think sticking your feet in hot water after a hike is ludicrous it felt amazing. glad i remembered my reefs and didnt have to put my boots back on.
spent saturday in big bend np hiking the hot spring trail from rio grand village to the abandoned resort at the hot spring.  probably the final desert hike this season but it was great and though you might think sticking your feet in hot water after a hike is ludicrous it felt amazing. glad i remembered my reefs and didnt have to put my boots back on.
spent saturday in big bend np hiking the hot spring trail from rio grand village to the abandoned resort at the hot spring.  probably the final desert hike this season but it was great and though you might think sticking your feet in hot water after a hike is ludicrous it felt amazing. glad i remembered my reefs and didnt have to put my boots back on.
spent saturday in big bend np hiking the hot spring trail from rio grand village to the abandoned resort at the hot spring.  probably the final desert hike this season but it was great and though you might think sticking your feet in hot water after a hike is ludicrous it felt amazing. glad i remembered my reefs and didnt have to put my boots back on.
spent saturday in big bend np hiking the hot spring trail from rio grand village to the abandoned resort at the hot spring.  probably the final desert hike this season but it was great and though you might think sticking your feet in hot water after a hike is ludicrous it felt amazing. glad i remembered my reefs and didnt have to put my boots back on.
spent saturday in big bend np hiking the hot spring trail from rio grand village to the abandoned resort at the hot spring.  probably the final desert hike this season but it was great and though you might think sticking your feet in hot water after a hike is ludicrous it felt amazing. glad i remembered my reefs and didnt have to put my boots back on.

spent saturday in big bend np hiking the hot spring trail from rio grand village to the abandoned resort at the hot spring.  probably the final desert hike this season but it was great and though you might think sticking your feet in hot water after a hike is ludicrous it felt amazing. glad i remembered my reefs and didnt have to put my boots back on.

was amazed to discover the pecos river high bridge on a recent trip south along highway 90.  equally blown away by the canyon the river has carved to necessitate such a bridge.
was amazed to discover the pecos river high bridge on a recent trip south along highway 90.  equally blown away by the canyon the river has carved to necessitate such a bridge.
was amazed to discover the pecos river high bridge on a recent trip south along highway 90.  equally blown away by the canyon the river has carved to necessitate such a bridge.

was amazed to discover the pecos river high bridge on a recent trip south along highway 90.  equally blown away by the canyon the river has carved to necessitate such a bridge.

"beautiful things dont ask for attention."